it is that time. that time of year when we all (or at least most of us) begin to reminisce about the previous year. 2007. i can remember waking up on jan. 1, 2007 just like it was yesterday. i remember waking up desperate for jesus. and desperate for him to be in control of everything. i spent most of that day pouring into his word and just praying like i never have before. i don’t say that to sound super spiritual. i say it to be real. there is a saying that whatever it is you spend new years day doing that that is what you will spend the rest of the year doing. i found that to be true this year. not that i spent super amounts of time in the word but i consistently stayed desperate for jesus. and to be honest, i don’t think i could have made it through 2007 w/o him. i thought i knew what ’07 would hold for me. oh how wrong i was. it will go down in the books as one of the hardest years i’ve walked through. it was tough stuff. and i know there are people who had it way worse than i did. my junk is nothing compared to what some have had to endure. don’t get me wrong. i saw many good times this year. 2007 wasn’t a complete waste. actually, i don’t think it was a waste at all. i’m actually grateful for everyday, every tear, every struggle. its from the hardest times that i have gained the most. the lessons that came as a result are priceless. i found myself though, throughout the year just waiting to get through certain times of the year or particular events. especially towards the end of the year. not b/c i was trying to speed up time but mainly b/c there were just certain times of the year that reminded me of previous times. and i just thought, “if i can get through this month or this event then i’ll be good”. the lord was so faithful to protect me. one thing i can say is that i’ve seen him protect me more than ever this year. and for that i’m forever grateful. i will say that though it wasn’t the easiest year of my life, i wouldn’t change anything. i see how i could have done things differently but to wallow in regret would be pointless. i do hope 2008 is better, obviously. one thing i hope doesn’t change is my desperation for his presence in my life. i am reminded daily that i can’t do life w/o him. and when i attempt to that is when it all falls apart. i don’t share all of this so that people feel sorry for me or to bring people down. i really did have a good year. better than i deserved really. really this is all just a reminder to me of how to start out the next year. but not just start out seeking him but to continue to do it over and over and over…………
i am a daughter, a sister, and a friend. i am a lover of jesus, music, books and all things children. i don’t pretend to be the best blogger nor the most consistent one but i blog none the less. i hope you enjoy.
life verse“be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
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